I am trying to find focus. I'm starting to realize that that for the last several years I have been looking for self fulfillment in the wrong place. I have put all my eggs in to one basket. Which wouldn't be bad if it wasn't the wrong basket.
This doesn't mean I'm going to change careers, drop photography, or pick up a new hobby. Actually I think I'm going to go deeper in to my photography and work on connecting deeper with my husband as we prepare the next few years for an empty nest. It's just going to be the two of us, and we'll have to get to know each other all over again. I love my kids, but I'm kind of excited for that new chapter.
I think we have expectations for our lives that society told us we should have. I think I need to really dig deep. I need to find out what I need to put my effort in to in order for me to feel happy and fulfilled. My career? If I focus on that as my largest source of fulfillment, will I be rewarded or disappointed? My hobby? Will I have regrets later with thoughts of feeling like time was wasted? Can focus be wide spread? Can I put a little here, and a little there and be acceptably successful in all those areas in my life? Is there such a thing as true balance?